Only One

Recently I have discovered the world of motion poetry and I must say I am hooked. Bringing poetry to life has always been a vision of mind and to know that there is a whole world out there just for that makes me excited for the future. I wrote this poem many years ago when I was an undergraduate student at Lincoln University in PA. I was at a point in my life where I just wasn’t happy and I couldn’t figure out why.

Emotional and not understanding why I begin to write about my anger and this was the outcome. I believe we all have inner demons we fight and moments of weakness where we aren’t happy within ourselves. Writing this helped me release my anger while also allowing me to see where my strengths are stems from. I hope this brings peace to some of you.

Poem:

I’m so empty inside, and my tears I hide from the world,
So many parts I am missing and still I stand strong, or so it may seem to you,
only one sees beneath my shell. Only one feels the pain I feel,
The burning of my eyes, the ice on my veins and the fire in my heart,
Only one can see inside my soul and grasp the root of my heartache,
Only one follows me day in and day out, only one lives what I live,
and only one has walked a day in my shoes, I smile and behind my smile is a stream of questions wanting to burst out at once. How come? What if? Why me?

Never shall another break through my walls and enter my safe place,
and now my engine is shut down, it doesn’t need oil, and no new motor will make it run, I put my trust in NO ONE, not even myself, sometimes I don’t even know what’s wrong, but only one does, this one haunts me and no matter how hard I try to stay away I find myself face to face with the one until *SHATTER* 

The glass from the mirror breaks from the impact of my fist, and as the pieces fall so does my reflection, the one whom I have to face everyday, whom I can’t hide my tears from, but only for the moment, somehow one day again I will find myself face to face with the one.

Published by: Pieces of Me

Often times we find ourselves hoping to following our minds rather than our hearts and we soon realize it's not the case. we get so caught up in our feelings and allow the stream of tears to sway us into making short term decisions that has long term effects. Sometimes we need to take a step back from ourselves and look at things from the outside. Ask ourselves is it worth it? Will I be ok with my decision tomorrow? Once we decide that it is worth losing we need to breathe in release and let go! No looking back, no regrets, just high hopes for the future, less frowns and more smiles. My name is Jordean Matthews and I am a native of Pleasantville, NJ. This blog showcases all things that are me. My life, my talents, my thoughts, my family. It truly displays all the pieces of me.

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