#Day5-Express Yourself

“Of all the things you wear, your expression is the most important.”-Janet Lane

I remember being in middle school and wanting to be so much like my siblings. My older brothers played volleyball and one ran track so I did both and my sister that was in the states had such a way with words that I set out to gain that skill set.

I would write little stories and poems just so I could be like her and one day I ended up just falling in love with the expression. With all the things I have encountered in life writing has helped me heal.

I haven’t expressed myself in a long time and I think it is time to get back into writing poetry and hope that it still has the same affect on me now that it did on me back then. I know some people who could definitely use some healing, myself being one of them.

While I try to find my voice again I will just leave y’all with this piece I wrote so many years ago.

I Wonder

I wonder…
How can the numbers 143 mean so little to you coming from me, wanting to believe your hype but being its not all its cracked up to be
And I wonder…
Why still we stay even when you stray, ignoring all the signs, even when they are in front of our eyes for us to see
And I wonder…
Why do we condone a life of pain for a night of pleasure, attempting to measure our self worth by the number of guys who want to hit
And I wonder…
How much abuse are we going to put ourselves through, before we get a clue and realize they really aint worth it
And I wonder…
Why can’t we control our emotions and move on to the next, be done with the drama, let go of the past that left us so vex
And I wonder…
Why we hold on to our past, when we knew it wouldn’t last, fighting and crying over something so complex
And I REALLY wonder…
How can we just wake up one day with a smile and really not care, I guess life really isnt fair when it comes to matters of the heart
And yet I still wonder…
now that I let go will my love feel the same, As I continue to wonder, I smile and cheer towards a new start ♥♥♥♥

Published by: Pieces of Me

Often times we find ourselves hoping to following our minds rather than our hearts and we soon realize it's not the case. we get so caught up in our feelings and allow the stream of tears to sway us into making short term decisions that has long term effects. Sometimes we need to take a step back from ourselves and look at things from the outside. Ask ourselves is it worth it? Will I be ok with my decision tomorrow? Once we decide that it is worth losing we need to breathe in release and let go! No looking back, no regrets, just high hopes for the future, less frowns and more smiles. My name is Jordean Matthews and I am a native of Pleasantville, NJ. This blog showcases all things that are me. My life, my talents, my thoughts, my family. It truly displays all the pieces of me.

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