#Day31- Me Time

“Sometimes you just need to disconnect and enjoy your own company.”-Unknown

Have you ever had a moment where you just felt like everything was happening too fast and you just needed to pause for a second? Like life was just passing you bye and you didn’t even get a chance to enjoy the moments? How about if those moments started to become far and few, have you ever experienced that? I did.

Some days I just want to scream, I jut want to tell everyone to leave me the F*^k alone and just runaway. I don’t want to listen to anyone’s problems, give anyone anything, do any favors or worry about anything. I just want to breathe.

This feeling hits me at the most random times and I get into these moods where I just feel like I am not meant to be enjoying all that I have worked hard for. I feel like I don’t deserve some of my happiness and that it is meant for others so I isolate myself.

Usually it isn’t a problem, I tend to walk alone but recently I have been letting more people into my space, which just means I have more people to wonder why I haven’t or won’t be around.

There really isn’t anything wrong, sometimes I just need to step back, recharge and refocus. The more people I let in the more I lose track of what it is that I want and need. I start focuses on their goals, their likes, their idea of fun and then all that I have worked towards is put on hold once again.

I need me time and I plan on taking it. For the next 30 days I plan to just enjoy moments by myself. Lunch dates, writing poetry, cooking, working on my projects, visiting sites around Miami and just refueling my motivation to achieve something.

I need this and I hope in the end I am able to push forth with all that I have learned about myself during this time.

Published by: Pieces of Me

Often times we find ourselves hoping to following our minds rather than our hearts and we soon realize it's not the case. we get so caught up in our feelings and allow the stream of tears to sway us into making short term decisions that has long term effects. Sometimes we need to take a step back from ourselves and look at things from the outside. Ask ourselves is it worth it? Will I be ok with my decision tomorrow? Once we decide that it is worth losing we need to breathe in release and let go! No looking back, no regrets, just high hopes for the future, less frowns and more smiles. My name is Jordean Matthews and I am a native of Pleasantville, NJ. This blog showcases all things that are me. My life, my talents, my thoughts, my family. It truly displays all the pieces of me.

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